When things get tough...

Rob and I are going through a very stressful time: trying to provide for a child, trying to be as self-reliant as possible, trying to stay positive, all while staring at a future with no job prospects and no source of income...it sounds simple and straightforward to write and read about. But, the weight this presses onto you is indescribable. I lose sleep over this and it's now an undercurrent to my daily life.

On Sunday night, we had Tithing Settlement. It was difficult to write out our tithing check, knowing that it could pay for mine and Aaron's health insurance plus a few more bills for the next month. But, Rob and I took a deep breath and acted on faith. With a smile, we handed over the check to our bishop.

Inexplicably, as we declared ourselves full tithe payers, the weight lifted from my shoulders. I knew we'd done the right thing. It felt good, and I felt hopeful.

In reality, of course it was Heavenly Father comforting us with His Spirit. Of course it was. The Spirit was such a real presence that evening, and it's a moment I will never forget for as long as I live.

Our bishop, not knowing the full extent of our situation and need, quoted:

Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it. (Malachi 3:10)

Just further proof that Heavenly Father is aware of us--each of us. Because of this experience, I've been trying to be more observant of my attitude, to remain positive. Heavenly Father told me that we'll be okay...

...how can I doubt?